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A.Oh, yes, of course we must begin at the beginning,
in the razor-dark of the first words, the numinous
verbs and sinful nouns, and isn't A for apple, always
and always? The apple in the garden, and my beautiful
one, and I am your serpent, tight around your thighs
the thickness of me, fleshy and cold as emeralds,
pulling your warmth into me at last. The red smear
(for it is /red/ we touch with our ragged hands, /red/
we see rushing forward, the sudden red--fiat lux) of
fruit-sun staining the sky with cider-blood, and don't
our lips drip with it, don't they glisten prettily. It
must always begin with the sink of teeth into a body,
the apple, the tree; I am your body and you are mine,
brown and sleek, tattooed with gleaming seeds, and
will you bite into it? Already I can taste the heat of
your palm under my tongue. Gleam, bright in the black
and I can see the outline of white, the outline of the
sea-serpent winding through water like plasma, like
blood, the same salt and swallow. And A is for asp,
too, my own, the snake and the umbilical roots. The
serpent and the fruit, and which is which, my child,
when both shine like the moon on a frog's back?
Follow, follow, the trail of the enlightened
ants over the hill, over the sweet prairie grass and
the smoke of it burning, over the rocks and ruins that
I cannot name, deplorable stone reeking of secrets and
you can never, ever know, not this far in advance, not
in the beginning, the taste of a tongue of stone.
Come, come, over the lips of a hundred grails slick of
agate and crocodile egg, and A is for alligators, too,
child at your desk full of pencil shavings and
thumbscrews.
Let us go then, let us go into the black and the
red, all the crimsons and carnelian the shimmer-flow
of blood down the wrist, down the lip and don't you
want to taste it, child, to taste the marsh-blood and
the delta-blood falling like a stream of flapping
salmon? Smile for the camera, lovely, show me your
milk teeth so I can measure our time. Let us go into
the black and the red, the bold legs of letters and
the smacking void of the spaces between, let us go
onto the papery Map, the estuaries of spaces between
word-islands, stepping stones, brambles and
leaf-walls. Let us go for you will come whether you
will or no. Let us stand tiptoe on the spires of
minarets, we recalcitrant stylites, letting the wind
from my father's dripping curls hollow us to empty
cypresses, holy and pure at the crown of the world.
Ask yourself this: will you commence that
descending column of muscles, enough to step forward,
into me and out of yourself? Will you cut your own
shape out of the air, will you melt into me and drink
the waters of the reed-cups? This is how we begin to
suffer, together, you and I, how we begin to breathe
the wind, how we close our mouths over her cerulean
breast like an infant. Does her nipple cut your tongue
like a record-needle? What does she play within you,
in the grooves of your mouth? I will play louder. I am
jealous, I am tooth-bared, if the wind will whistle in
your bones, I will eat them, to joint and marrow. This
is the letter I inscribe on your tongue in lacerations
of honeycomb and sashimi, this is how I open your
secret mouth and compel.
It is the beginning, it is all things, the aleph
and the alpha, the beauty of the gnarled foot of the
mountain. I know what crawls beneath those rocks like
knuckles, I know how to love what lies there. The slip
of slime on the stones and that one step down, that
one step into the black and a wheel is set in motion.
This, chestnut-cheeked child, is the grinding of the
wheel and the hoaring of the trees; the first
shuddering frame. Grind down the bleeding frost and
find beneath your fingers a paste smeared on the face
of the stars, the blind and the black and in the end I
will have you, for in the beginning I speak, the first
word, the first glyph beaming. The mouth opens and
there is a moment before the creak of sound, pregnant
and leaping, and it is that moment that we touch with
our toes, the water is cold and we devour it, the
water is warm and we inject it into us, the finger
crooks inwards and you follow the curve of the scythe
through the wheat.
Give me your arm and down we go, falling through
the dark like a hand. It is there and gone, raise your
arms as we fly, so that the air can get the sense of
you, can measure your reach, so that you will fit into
me, my dear, snugly and well. Open your mouth that
your teeth may be counted, open your mouth and swallow
the dark, open until your jaw snaps, and I will
continue to scrawl with the tip of your incisor in the
taffeta mud. I will dance with clumps of it, earth and
phrases of apple-flesh, under your demure eyelashes,
and the lizards will bite at my breasts, all for your
amusement, all to draw back the curtain and begin the
salivating chorus. Come and I will paint your face
with clay, come and kiss my cheek like a good child.
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